#039: Tears, Laughter, and the Vibrations of my Beloved's Violin: A Mushroom Trip Report

podcast Aug 12, 2023

πŸ’« Today, I want to share an incredibly powerful and transformative experience that I had recently. It involved mushrooms, vulnerability, and an unexpected connection that reminded me of the profound relationship between grief and laughter.


Prepare to be moved! 🌿🎭


🎻 It all started as I sat on my screened-in porch, surrounded by nature, with my beloved partner by my side. Seeking a deeper connection with myself and the universe, I embarked on a mushroom journey, unsure of what awaited me on the other side. Little did I know, it would change everything. πŸ„πŸ’•


🎢 As the mushrooms began to take effect, I felt an intense resonance with my husband,  who plays the violin. In that moment, the music seemed to enhance and carry my voice further than I could on my own. The violin became a protector, enveloping my vocal tone and preserving my vibrational energy. 🎻✨


πŸ’” Waves of sadness washed over me, and I found myself crying uncontrollably. In the past, I would try to rationalize my tears or push them away, but this time, I allowed myself to fully feel the pain in my heart. I surrendered to the tears, letting them flow without judgment or resistance. πŸŒŠπŸ’§


🌟 And guess what happened? Something truly magical. In the midst of my tears, a shift occurred, and laughter burst forth. Grief and laughter, almost like roommates or twin sisters, intertwined within me. The absurdity of life, the joy and appreciation, flooded my being. πŸ˜‚βœ¨


🎡 My partner, my beloved, communicated through his violin, extending deep notes and carrying my toning when I needed to breathe. Our collaboration was effortless, as if they could effortlessly find and share the same frequency. It was a symphony of love and connection. πŸŽΌπŸ’ž


πŸ’ͺ As a mature woman in her late 50s, I've developed coping mechanisms to survive in the world. But in this vulnerable moment, I realized that trying to stop myself from crying only made me cry more. I learned the power of fully surrendering and letting myself be seen in my most raw state. 🌹


πŸ’• This experience reminded me of the importance of broadcasting a frequency from the heart, a frequency that may not always be conveyed through words. I felt supported in my broadcasting efforts, with my partner as a key member of my support team, protecting and cushioning me. πŸŒΏπŸ›‘οΈ


πŸ“© I'd love to hear about your own journeys and experiences that you might want to share. If you resonate with my message or have any thoughts, feel free to email me.  You can also join the Mother Tree Community.   Let's connect and learn from each other. πŸ’Œ 


πŸ„ Disclaimer: When I mention mushrooms, please note that I'm not endorsing any illegal activity. My focus is on promoting good health and exploring the potential for emotional healing. 🌿🌱

πŸ‘‰ Thank you for joining me on this profound journey. If you resonated with my experience, I invite you to reach out and connect. πŸ’«βœ¨



00:01:08 During a mushroom journey, the speaker sets a vague intention of being open to unconditional love. As they slow down and lie on the couch, waves of sadness overcome them, leading to uncontrollable crying. Typically, they analyze the cause of their sadness, but this time they simply allow themselves to experience it. After a while, they stop crying and express a sense of empowerment.


00:05:07 The speaker experienced sadness and empathy towards plants being treated as objects, realizing their own empathetic nature and the need to wall off emotions. They appreciated their own empathetic self while witnessing their beloved's care for the plants.


00:08:24 In this passage, the speaker describes a powerful emotional experience where their crying transformed into a musical tone. They reveal that their beloved often communicates through the violin, and during this particular moment, their partner joined them in a musical conversation. The violin would prolong their notes, allowing the author to take breaths while seamlessly continuing their tone. This experience made the author reflect on the beauty of their partnership, as their partner effortlessly understands and shares their frequency of expression. This connection contrasts with other collaborations where the lack of shared frequency made the process feel laborious.


00:11:34 100% broadcast from the heart, supported by my partner and their cordal frequencies. Protection for valuable broadcasting emissions. Curious about others' journeys.



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